Take a moment. Just a moment.
Turn off any music, put your phone down, shut yourself away, for just a moment.
Sit and think, think hard, about the answer to one simple question.
When are you happy?
At the end of the day, we’re all human. Humans are not neurologically wired to only feel one emotion, so of course we cannot be happy all the time. Think about it, when was the last time you felt completely content, completely at peace; happy?
For myself, it’s rather cliche. It was just lying in bed with the woman I’ve loved years and years. Not saying anything, barely even awake, just laying there. It was in that moment where I wasn’t worrying about anything else. My anxiety disappeared, my depression vanished in thin air, I was just happy for once.
For those of you that have found your way to this blog, you community of beautiful individuals, all with your own problems, I think I’m safe in assuming that being happy is a rare luxury for you.
That’s why I challenge you, actually, I dare you. I dare you to take just a moment and think about the last time you were truly happy. Forget everything else, just think about that moment. Then I want you to think about how you got to that moment.
All the stress, anxiety and demons in your life are ever present, yet you still have this happy memory. Why’s that? It’s because when we’re in the right situation, our demons aren’t strong enough to bring us down.
It’s a gentle reminder that you can be happy. You have been happy. You will be happy again. It’s a well deserved middle finger up to mental health.
Chase your happy moments, don’t forget them. This is your pursuit of happiness; you may have your demons holding you back, but they’ll have weak moments, and that’s where we win.
That’s when we’re happy.
Anxiety The Bitch 
I find it odd, the way you come across things you were thinking about yourself, at times. Random coincidence or providence? At any rate, I’ve been thinking about recovery and happy of late and realize it’s been a long time since I’ve been happy. I’ve been content with an absence of misery. But I think it’s something I’ll try to pursue, or at least stumble upon.
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I’m working on it. Sitting outside and trying to pet our ferals is one place where I’m happy – especially when they allow scritches. Nothing else matters at that moment, Yes, we’re working on the spay/neuter etc – but the big thing is that moment of peace and trust. I’m happy when my grandson and I are being creative together, when my husband snuggles me… The moments are there. I just have to allow them in.
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I have done this, and I still do.. I believe that shutting off at times is a well needed therapy for those of us who suffer depression and anxiety
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